tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-52092389304230128392024-02-20T16:14:35.084-08:00dearest. sincerely.letters to people that effect and affect my world.sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.comBlogger18125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-40395294210933626172015-12-13T23:53:00.000-08:002015-12-13T23:53:51.867-08:00sir.dearest sir.<br />
<br />
i feel so mad at you. <br />
and so sad for you.<br />
<br />
i dont understand you.<br />
<br />
this negativity.<br />always.<br />
A L W A Y S !<br />
has to be so hard on you.<br />
<br />
your new ig name.<br />
makes me think that you are soon going to do the unthinkable.<br />
and it makes me sad that its an option that i can think that.<br />
which makes me mad at you again.<br />
<br />
you asked your sister.<br />
why you were such a screw up.<br />
<br />
i dont think you are.<br />
i think that you just hide behind that.<br />
you hide behind negativity.<br />
you hide behind hurt.<br />
you hide behind anger.<br />
you hide behind pride.<br />
you hide behind insecurity.<br />
<br />
your hiding.<br />
that is what makes you FEEL like a screw up.<br />
but if you would come out of hiding.<br />
i think it would be different.<br />
<br />
i think that if you would find yourself.<br />
find yourself in Jesus.<br />
not for someone.<br />
not because of someone.<br />
<br />
that you could see that you arent.<br />
<br />you arent even close to a screw up.<br />
<br />
sincerely.<br />
i know your worth.sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-84571591592933374162015-11-26T19:47:00.000-08:002015-11-27T06:01:03.081-08:00thanksgiving.dearest world.<br />
<br />
<br />
its thanksgiving.<br />
and im thankful.<br />
<br />
the list is so long.<br />
<br />
my mom is still with me.<br />
she annoys me to no end.<br />
but she is still here.<br />
and im thankful.<br />
<br />
my brother and my sister in law.<br />
hes an idiot.<br />
she puts up with him.<br />
im not sure how he become so blessed.<br />
im thankful for them.<br />
<br />
the higgins.<br />
every. single. one.<br />
i cannot get enough of them.<br />
i am thankful that God knew what he was doing.<br />
i am thankful they are in my life.<br />
<br />
the graves.<br />
all sets.<br />
pastor. gg.<br />
jenny. harley.<br />
kennadie.<br />
i just know that my life is better.<br />
im thankful. <br />
<br />
awc.<br />
there is no place like home.<br />
no matter if my life is going crazy.<br />
no matter if the place is just filled with crazies.<br />
its my safe place.<br />
my haven.<br />
im thankful.<br />
<br />
my job.<br />
i love it.<br />
and i hate it.<br />
but i love that its stable.<br />
for that im thankful.<br />
<br />
the list can go on and on.<br />
but for now.<br />
ill just say, that i dont deserve all the happiness in my life.<br />
but God seems to love me enough to bestow it on me.<br />
im thankful.<br />
<br />
sincerely.<br />
thankful.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
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<br />sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-14329455546495230662015-11-25T13:17:00.000-08:002015-11-25T13:17:01.769-08:00pho.<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">dearest pho.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">thank you for making my life happy.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">its the small things that make me happy.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">five spice broth.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">sprouts.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">beef.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">noodles.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">basil.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">hot sauce.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">plum sauce.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">jalapenos.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">lime.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">you.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">you make me happy!</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">sincerely.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">lover of all things soup. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><br /></span>sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-10930955189909481952015-11-24T14:15:00.001-08:002015-11-25T13:18:22.473-08:00God.<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">dearest God. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">matthew 5:38-48 in the message says...</span><br />
<blockquote class="tr_bq">
<h3>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span class="text Matt-5-38-Matt-5-42" id="en-MSG-9944">Love Your Enemies</span></span></span></h3>
<div class="first-line-none">
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><span class="text Matt-5-38-Matt-5-42"><sup class="versenum">38-42 </sup>“Here’s
another old saying that deserves a second look: ‘Eye for eye, tooth for
tooth.’ Is that going to get us anywhere? Here’s what I propose: ‘Don’t
hit back at all.’ If someone strikes you, stand there and take it. If
someone drags you into court and sues for the shirt off your back,
giftwrap your best coat and make a present of it. And if someone takes
unfair advantage of you, use the occasion to practice the servant life.
No more tit-for-tat stuff. <span style="color: magenta;">Live generously.</span></span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><span class="text Matt-5-43-Matt-5-47" id="en-MSG-9945"><sup class="versenum">43-47 </sup>“You’re
familiar with the old written law, ‘Love your friend,’ and its
unwritten companion, ‘Hate your enemy.’ I’m challenging that. I’m
telling you to love your enemies. Let them bring out the best in you,
not the worst. <span style="color: magenta;">When someone gives you a hard time, respond with the
energies of prayer, for then you are working out of your true selves,
your God-created selves. This is what God does. </span>He gives his best—the
sun to warm and the rain to nourish—to everyone, regardless: the good
and bad, the nice and nasty. <span style="color: magenta;"><u>If all you do is love the lovable, do you
expect a bonus? </u></span>Anybody can do that. If you simply say hello to those
who greet you, do you expect a medal? Any run-of-the-mill sinner does
that.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><span class="text Matt-5-48" id="en-MSG-9946"><sup class="versenum">48 </sup>“<span style="color: magenta;">In a word, what I’m saying is, <i>Grow up</i>.
You’re kingdom subjects. Now live like it.</span> Live out your God-created
identity. Live generously and graciously toward others, the way God
lives toward you.”</span></span></blockquote>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">well hello conviction.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">its nice to meet you.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">so.<br />yesterday, i was feeling some kind of way.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">wrote my feelings about <span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">sir</span>.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">wrote my feelings about johnny.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">wrote my feelings about lost girl.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">my feelings about <span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">sir.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">havent changed.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i will not be a terrible human to him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i will talk to him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i will see him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but i wont seek his friendship.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i will allow him to seek mine if he wants to.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but currently he cannot text or call me. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i dont plan on changing that anytime soon.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i dont plan on bad mouthing him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i dont plan on letting others badmouth him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i dont want to see him as anything other than well.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i pray that You touch him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">that You be what he needs.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">show him that You are real.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">show him that Your love is the only thing that will make him whole. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">he seeks love with his whole being.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">he seeks satisfaction and want. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">he wont find it. in anything other than You.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">be his love. be his light. be his God.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">about johnny.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i know i should be repentant on how i feel about him.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">brother bill says:<br />You wont give me grace to get over my issue with him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">because the issue didnt start with me.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">honestly,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i dont hope he dies.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i dont hope that someone does to his children<br /> what he did to the child. </span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i just dont care about him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">is that bad? </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">is it bad that i dont wish him well.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i dont wish him bad either.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i just dont care.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i hope his wife.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">and his children are okay.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i hope they florioush.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i hope that You take care of them.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i pray that they grow up.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">in a healthy, God loving manner.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i pray that his mom and family are okay.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i pray that they are blessed beyond measure.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i just dont care about him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">help me to care about him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">help me to be able to pray for him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">and actually care what happens to him.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i dont need him in my life.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">You know, i do not want him in my life.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but help me to forgive him enough to care.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">about his soul.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">no matter the turmoil that he has put us through.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: xx-small;">(i say us, because his actions effected and affected many more than he will ever know)</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">he has a soul. that needs You.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">in a way he has never known.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">touch his heart Jesus.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">keep him away from here.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but touch his heart Jesus.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">the lost girl.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i dont feel conviction about her.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i just want her well.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i want her happy in You. </span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">yesterday i read this blog post</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><a href="http://katiedavis.amazima.org/2015/03/it-is-rainy-season-again.html" target="_blank">on earth as it is in heaven - it is rainy season again</a> </span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i wanted to leave work.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">and pray.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> just pray.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i wanted to ask You.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">let her see You.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">let her see You at work.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">let her light shine so brightly for You.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i know that she is hurting.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i know that she might feel lost.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i know all of that.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but please show her... You. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">let her have the eyes to see You.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">in the small things.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">in the things that hurt.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">in her despair.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">in her healing.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">let her see. You.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">sincerely.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">convicted. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> </span>sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-41295514927893977822015-11-23T10:49:00.001-08:002015-11-23T10:49:25.651-08:00lost girl.<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">dearest lost girl.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">please. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">with everything in me.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">dont stay lost forever.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you are in a place right now.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">where you are saying things in your blog.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">that give me hope.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you can make it.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">come out.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">be who you need to be.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">who God made you to be.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">its not to late. </span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you can make it.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">breed happiness.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">dont blame the child.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">find a way to overcome.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">to rise.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i believe you can.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">sincerely.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">the believer. </span>sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-87935909906054553402015-11-23T10:44:00.004-08:002015-11-26T19:10:20.690-08:00johnny.<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">johnny.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you dont even get a dearest.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you are a foul human being. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">im not even sure why you get a post at all.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but ive gotta get it out.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">all the hate and hurt.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">its got to come out. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you are a gross. gross. gross. person.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">gross isnt a gross enough word for you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><b>first. </b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you cheat on your wife.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">destroy your <i>family</i>.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">destroy everything within your reach.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">all because you are a selfish, lust filled, jerk.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i dont even know the havoc that you put <br /> the people that supported you through.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but im assuming you hurt them too.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">thats just you, you leave a trail of destruction everywhere you go.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">gross.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><b>second.</b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you move to portland.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you come to us.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">the vast majority, welcome you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i did. <i>much to my dismay.</i> i did.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you reap the consequences of your actions.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you work a terrible job.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">are<i> homeless.</i> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><b>i</b> let your <i>disgusting self</i> sleep on my couch.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><b>i </b>gave you $200 when you had<b> nothing</b>.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">not for any credit or glory for myself.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but because you <u><i><b>were</b></i></u> my friend.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">my mom asked you to help us move.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">she told you that she couldnt afford to pay you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">and she couldnt. neither could i.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">she couldnt have afforded to put gas in allens truck either.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but you didnt know that.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you only were worried about yourself.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">only worried about your <u><b>rebellion</b></u>. </span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">allen and billie were a <i>light</i> for us.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><i>when you were off destroying a family</i>.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">billie was packing my house.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">allen was giving us money to pay for gas ourselves.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">because august and september were terrible months for us.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">putting a little gas in his truck was the only way she knew to pay him back.</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you havent been there for us. </span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you havent done anything for my mom.</span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you havent done anything but destroy.</span></i><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">when you told her that she could pay you, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i almost said something.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">because that was, <i>again</i>, disgusting.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but i needed her to know,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">what i already knew.</span><br />
<br />
<b><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you are a dirtbag.</span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">a filthy, nasty, dirtbag.</span></b><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i wont even get into the headphones.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but i will add another adjective.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">a filthy, nasty, <u>greedy</u>, dirtbag.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">lets move on to how you destroyed another group of people.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you preyed on a vulnerable girl.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> <span style="font-size: x-small;"> (several of them in fact. ew.)</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i, myself, told you that the adult was just looking for love.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you preyed on her. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you took advantage of her.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you took her away from her family.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">of the only woman who has been there for her.</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">since her birth.</span></i><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">her 'dad', whilst he was a willing participant in the making.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">has not been a dad for her, her whole life.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">did she not tell you of the time he left them at the convience store?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">did she not tell you of the time where they had to move from their house in hours.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">of the abuse. of the disgusting things he did.</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">so you, push her towards him.</span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">because he would do anything to hurt her mother.</span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">and being with you. a nasty, sleezy, slimeball is just the ticket.</span></i><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">was this a game to you?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">my best friend told her dad.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">that you were in fact a slimeball.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you didnt get a license.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">are you trying to make them pay?</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i wonder if this is a game to you.</span></i><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">not only did you hurt her family.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">your games hurt her ex.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">they hurt his family.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">they hurt many relationships.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">people supported you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">people were there for you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">and her mom was standing for truth.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">not being ugly. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">not being hurtful.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but she stood for truth.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">and you threw all <i>that</i> destruction away.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">to destroy another family.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><i>to destroy a child</i>.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you have a daughter.</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">how. could. you.</span></i><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">how would you feel?</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">how. could. you.</span></i><br />
<br />
<b><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">why her?</span></b><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">did she have the same <i>vulnerable </i>look on her face?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">this new path of destruction that you caused.</span><br />
<u><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">has caused a lot of hurt.</span></u><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you hurt an adult.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><i>this adult is blaming the child.</i> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">this adult is hurt herself, and spewing hurt at a child.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">this child has a family.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">that is being hurt by the adult.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">this adult has a family that is being hurt by the situation.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">this adult has hurt her grandma. <span style="font-size: xx-small;">(no worries on that one in my eyes)</span><br />this adult is trying to gain victory.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but she is an adult tangled in the same pattern.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you killed this adult.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">she will rise. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">im hoping that she will rise for good this time.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">she took a big blow.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">God can work it out.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">how could you have wanted her back.</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">filthy.</span></i><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">how could you.</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">selfish.</span></i><br />
<br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">this child.</span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">this beautiful.</span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> hurting.</span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> vulnerable.</span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> child.</span></i><br />
<br />
<b><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">there is a very big difference in</span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">sixteen.</span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">and.</span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">eighteen.</span></b><br />
<br />
<b><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">there is a big difference in </span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">seventeen & three hundred and sixty days.</span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">and eighteen. </span></b><br />
<br />
<u><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">a big moral difference for a man of thirty one.</span></u><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">this child. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you hurt her.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you hurt her family.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you hurt her church.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you hurt her other church.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you hurt her youth group.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you hurt her friends.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you hurt her extended family.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you hurt everyone you touch.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">im assuming finding out you are a pedophile.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">hurt your wife again.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">she probably wonders if her children are safe.</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">i know, that i do.</span></i><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">half of me knows they will be.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">half of me knows you wont hurt them.</span><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but the half of me that knows youre sleezy.</span></i><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">worries for them.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">thats why im glad the police were called.</span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">so hopefully, you can never have full custody.</span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">hopefully, your sleeziness wont rub off on them. </span></i><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you are a pitiful excuse for a man.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you dont deserve happiness.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you dont deserve anything but misery.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">you dont deserve anything but these same things happening to you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">but i would never wish that on your wife.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">or your beautiful babies.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"></span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">sincerely.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">sarah</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-3930521348228537272015-11-23T09:25:00.001-08:002015-11-23T09:25:06.460-08:00sir.<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">dearest sir.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you do realize that you are your own worst enemy, right?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you push away everything good in your life with your negativity.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you dont, honestly, care about other people. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you think you do, but you dont.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you are so wrapped up in yourself.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">if i called you right now, you would probably come.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">not because of me, not because you love me.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">not because you enjoy helping others. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">but because of yourself, because you love being needed.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i have always stood up for you. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i have always loved you, even through you being unlovable at times.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i have always wanted whats best for you.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i still do.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> somewhere in my heart.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i still want the best for you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i dont want you to suffer.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i cringe because you allow yourself to repeat this same destructive cycle.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">but that friday.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you changed my heart for you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i want you well.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i want you to love God.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i want you to grow up.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">but without my friendship.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you were so disgusting.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">foul.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> heartless.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> cold.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"> selfish! </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">im not sure why ive ever allowed myself around that.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">so im saying goodbye to you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">something i never thought i would do.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">and whilst it hurt on that friday. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">it still hurt on that saturday.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">it no longer hurts.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">sincerely,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i love me more. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span>sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-35835577539681655062015-03-09T17:41:00.000-07:002015-03-09T17:41:06.755-07:00self.dearest self.<br />
<br />
shut up.<br />
stop talking.<br />
dont keep moving your mouth.<br />
zip your lips.<br />
<br />
think.<br />
<br />
your agenda doesnt need to be heard.<br />
your thoughts are not important.<br />
<br />
listening.<br />
doesnt require speaking.<br />
<br />
stop.<br />
talking.<br />
<br />
sincerely.<br />
the revelation.sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-4558145484723973812015-03-08T13:28:00.000-07:002015-03-08T13:28:17.989-07:00self.dearest self.<br />
<br />
you are thirty one years old.<br />you are NOT a child.<br />
you ARE an adult.<br />
<br />
you, are the only one in control of YOUR life.<br />
besides Jesus.<br />
<br />
please stop letting OTHERS rule YOUR emotions.<br />please stop letting EXCUSES get in the way of MY happiness.<br />please stop letting YOUR flesh mandate what YOU do.<br />
please get YOUR weight under control.<br />
<br />
find the emotions. <br />
let God have them.<br />
turn it over.<br />
YOU cant help ME.<br />
only GOD can.<br />
<br />
please stop.<br />
<br />
a lack of planning on YOUR part,<br />
doesnt mean an emergancy on MY part.<br />
<br />
let me out.<br />
<br />
sincerely.<br />
sarah.sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-84984663080260484032015-02-15T17:54:00.001-08:002015-02-15T17:54:40.074-08:00God.<div class="tr_bq">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">dearest God.</span></div>
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">its amazing when you humble me.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">i dont take kindly to it. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">at first.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">you sent a lady to tell me.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">then you sent your servant to tell me.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">dawnellas message was the same at tcg.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="passage-display-bcv" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; display: inline; margin: 0px; padding-right: 10px;">1 Corinthians 13:1-13</span><span class="passage-display-version" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; display: inline;">(MSG)</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 1.1;">The Way of Love</span><span class="text 1Cor-13-1" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 12.8000001907349px;"><b>1 </b></span><span style="line-height: 24px;">If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don’t love, I’m nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate.</span></span></span><span class="text 1Cor-13-2" id="en-MSG-12234" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">2 </span>If I speak God’s Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, “Jump,” and it jumps, but I don’t love, I’m nothing.</span></span><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" id="en-MSG-12235" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">3-7 </span>If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love.</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Love never gives up.</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Love cares more for others than for self.</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Love doesn’t strut,</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Doesn’t have a swelled head,</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Doesn’t force itself on others,</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Isn’t always “me first,”</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Doesn’t fly off the handle,</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others,</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Doesn’t revel when others grovel,</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Puts up with anything,</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Trusts God always,</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Always looks for the best,</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">Never looks back,</span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="text 1Cor-13-3-1Cor-13-7" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative;">But keeps going to the end.</span></span><span class="text 1Cor-13-8-1Cor-13-10" id="en-MSG-12236" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">8-10 </span>Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.</span></span><span class="text 1Cor-13-11" id="en-MSG-12237" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">11 </span>When I was an infant at my mother’s breast, I gurgled and cooed like any infant. When I grew up, I left those infant ways for good.</span></span><span class="text 1Cor-13-12" id="en-MSG-12238" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">12 </span>We don’t yet see things clearly. We’re squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won’t be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We’ll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!</span></span><span class="text 1Cor-13-13" id="en-MSG-12239" style="-webkit-font-smoothing: antialiased; box-sizing: border-box;"><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">13 </span>But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love.</span></span></span></blockquote>
i will learn.<br />
as with everyone else.<br />
please be patient.<br />
<br />
sincerely.<br />
i am learning your love.sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-324190050383592802015-02-13T17:14:00.001-08:002015-02-13T17:14:58.117-08:00lost girl.dearest lost girl.<br />
<br />
you make it really.<br />
really. <br />
really hard.<br />
to love you like im supposed to.<br />
<br />
hosea.<br />
hosea.<br />
hosea.<br />
hosea.<br />
Gods love.<br />
<br />
be patient.<br />
<br />
sincerely.<br />
my flesh loathes you.<br />
my heart loves you.<br />
my mind is confused.sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-11979390004694880322015-02-13T17:11:00.000-08:002015-02-13T17:15:09.308-08:00sir.dearest sir.<br />
<br />
i mean it when i say.<br />
im sorry.<br />
<br />
i dont know what happened.<br />
honestly. as long as you are okay.<br />
i dont want to know.<br />
<br />
but. im sorry it couldnt be.<br />
what you wanted it to be.<br />
<br />
sincerely.<br />
id rather have been wrong. sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-53377391694318938572015-02-01T12:22:00.001-08:002015-02-01T12:22:06.340-08:00lost girl. dearest lost girl.<br />
<br />
never never land is not real.<br />
right?<br />
<br />
lands of make believe.<br />
are exactly that.<br />
make believe.<br />
<br />
fairy tales.<br />
are tales.<br />
some call them tall tales.<br />
not truths.<br />
<br />
i spent a lot of time wondering why.<br />
wondering why make believe is so easy to live in.<br />
i do it. i talk to myself in the car.<br />
i am thirty one years old.<br />
i still pretend.<br />
<br />
i wish i know what parts of you were pretend.<br />
and what parts of you were real.<br />
<br />
reality with you is something that im not sure.<br />
super unsure, that ive actually seen.<br />
have you always played a part?<br />
<br />
i never used to care.<br />
because you were just a girl.<br />
a child.<br />
<br />
you didnt matter to me.<br />
<br />
until you did.<br />
until i started to care for you.<br />
until you became a part of something i was in.<br />
<br />
you didnt matter to me.<br />
<br />
until your pretend hurt my friend.<br />
then another.<br />
then another.<br />
then another.<br />
then another.<br />
then another.<br />
then another.<br />
then another.<br />
then another.<br />
then another.<br />
then another.<br />
then me.<br />
<br />
they all have names.<br />
we all have a past.<br />
thats why for every one of them.<br />
if they havent forgiven you.<br />
thats their issue.<br />
i have. ive forgive you<br />
<br />
you want everything.<br />
but want to give make believe.<br />
you want everything.<br />
and return it for hurt.<br />
<br />
as a 'christian'.<br />
what am i supposed to give to you.<br />
what am i supposed to do.<br />
<br />
hosea.<br />
<br />
im supposed to love like Jesus.<br />
with a love like Him.<br />
the way hosea did.<br />
<br />
and i will try.<br />
i will try.<br />
i will do my best.<br />
<br />
i told someone that i care about.<br />
someone that i think you will hurt.<br />
someone whos family will hurt badly.<br />
if you leave the destruction i think you will.<br />
<br />
i told her to give you a chance.<br />
i told her to try to know you.<br />
because you have the power to be amazing.<br />
<br />
please be amazing.<br />
please leave nevernever land being.<br />
be amazing.<br />
<br />
be amazing in God.<br />
in who i know you can be.<br />
please.<br />
<br />
but im praying.<br />
that even if hurt ensues.<br />
that i will still love you.<br />
like hosea.<br />
like Jesus.<br />
like i should.<br />
<br />
be patient with me.<br />
<br />
sincerely.<br />
a real. live. girl.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-90133358317067447332015-01-27T19:33:00.001-08:002015-11-23T10:45:49.111-08:00sickness.<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">dearest sickness.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i don't like you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">go away.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">never come back.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">sincerely.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">in bed by 7</span>sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-32789239156669507082015-01-26T13:35:00.002-08:002015-11-23T10:45:39.344-08:00old friend<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">dearest old friend.</span><br />
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">im proud of you.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i am not sure where you've been.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">or even what you've done over the last few years.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">but I can remember laying on the floor of your home.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">praying that you would be okay.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">praying that you would make it.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">praying that you wouldn't be destroyed in the life you were pursuing.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you started off great.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">had a pretty bad middle, as far as I can see.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">but it's amazing to see the later middle.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">it's amazing to see that you are back.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">where you need to be.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">with the new family you have.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">new to everyone.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I'm proud of you for knowing your way back.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">not everyone makes it back,</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">but you are back.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">it's something to thank God for.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">sincerely,</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">all of my childhood prayers were dedicated to you.</span></div>
sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-88922616081010544362015-01-26T11:44:00.005-08:002015-11-23T10:45:14.574-08:00self.<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">dearest self.</span><br />
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">if you were really tired.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">really tired.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">of all the things that stay the same.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">year after year.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you would change them.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">you're obviously not done yet.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">& that's sad.</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">sincerely,</span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">self.</span></div>
sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-81966831303067821262015-01-25T23:51:00.002-08:002015-01-25T23:51:39.944-08:00sir.dearest sir.<br />
<br />
i sat at the table. as they slandered you.<br />
not terribly. but enough that i wanted to tell them they were wrong.<br />
i wanted to clear your good name.<br />
it wasnt your fault that youre blinded.<br />
<br />
i couldnt even open my mouth to do so.<br />
in that, im sorry. i should have.<br />
i should have said what needed to be said.<br />
i shouldnt let them have said anything about you.<br />
<br />
i saw to much today. more than i asked to see.<br />
in fact i asked to not be told anything at all.<br />
but the people that would be, didnt keep it from my eyes<br />
although i asked. i did..<br />
<br />
i dont envy you.<br />
being on the inside looking out.<br />
i dont envy you one bit.<br />
you cant see it.<br />
you cant feel it.<br />
the change. the shift.<br />
<br />
when you do though.<br />when you realize the change was so much bigger than what you wanted.<br />i hate to think that it will be to late.<br />so i will hold out hope.<br />that you make it out alive.<br />in tact.<br /><br />sincerely,<br />sarah.<br />
<br />sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5209238930423012839.post-19333665461742712602015-01-25T23:33:00.002-08:002015-11-23T10:45:26.913-08:00readers.<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">dearest readers.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">i probably dont know you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">and thats why i feel free to say all that i am going to.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">in short, non committal letters.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">to people. things. situations that i need to speak to.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">read them. dont read them.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">your choice.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">sincerely.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">the writer.</span>sarah.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16700477326037100596noreply@blogger.com0